Writing endeovers

 I am writing again. I had a story idea and it's begging to come out. There are many story ideas I have had. I started my first one when I was a preteen. I have two book long ideas, one of them stopped giving me more after a while. This time, I can't stop it. I have enough ideas for three books! It's nuts! They all happen in the same world. I will go more detail in that one in later post. This is just about me writing. 

I have always liked writing. Like I said, first idea I had was quite young. I think I still have it somewhere back home if my parents haven't thrown it away. It's not good, but I was 12 or something. I was writing. When I was an angsty teenager I wrote a lot of poetry. Again, not the best poetry either. But I think you have to write bad stuff in order to become better. Mistakes makes us better human beings. It improves our skills. 

Then in a bit later life than most, I went to university. I think I was about 24-25 when I started. I was studying English. I got an idea and a then friend encourages me to write. So, I started. I was also writing in English. I was more confident in the language. And then I hit a road block. I could not figure out how to continue. I have tried it again over the years, but my muse is not being helpful. 

This summer, I wanted to write again. I have a very good imagination. It's lovely side effect of ADHD. I had an idea and more importantly, I feel the story. I can see what happens in my mind, I can live it. It doesn't mean I am not surprised by it! I start writing, I know where the scene is going and then I end up somewhere completely different. I love it! I know what I want from it, but at the same time, I am as surprised as my readers will be when they read it!
My studies are on summer holiday, so I have time. I wanted to do something productive. I don't have a job, so I can use this like a job. I have breakfast, sit at the computer and start writing. I love it! It's giving me meaning, it's a creative outlet. It's helping me sort things in my head, get out of my head for a bit as well. I'm learning new things as well, outside myself. I will post a few things about how is it to write and my story. Mind you, it will be unedited, except by me, and I am no editor. So, please forgive me. English is a foreign language to me and I have ADHD. I still hope you can enjoy the story.

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